YaYa ? Cool right? 00:17 is a difficult move ! 00:48 is a even more difficult move , As expected by the number one dancer in the group 00:56 Is a okay move , But then not so complicated , but the last slice from the hand looks cool =D This is donghae , same nickname as me ! Fish =D.
Okay lets start.... hmm... Firstly , HAPPY B DAY WENDY =) She's a nice person =)
hm... about yesterday , i felt retared , i make friend friend with her again ! lol , i got this stupid vision of mine . But it's alright . I just can convince myself that he is better than me , hmm.... like... maybe in looks? smarter? hm...makes her laugh ? pei pei her ? yaya , Thats why i move away , But i do believe that after making myself better i can find another girl ^^ yayayayayayaya! im such a nice kid =) NAH ! lols.
haha , maybe xf is a nice person ... hmm.... i think he's older than me .... senpai ? Lol , yup .
Gemini and pisces are good friends =D really .. Dun believe me ?
HERE IT GOES :You are most compatible with Pisces - totally bliss, Libra - a fairy tale romance, Taurus - an excellent match, Leo - a romantic couple, Scorpio - such fun and so tantalising.
Absolutely no chance! Sagittarius - so many problems, Aquarius - do take care, Gemini - really needs insight, Aries - you will need total dedication here.
LOL , Cute isn't it ? LOL DO TAKE CARE ? laugh out loud xD
HEY HEY pisces :The bright side Piscean sensitivity is so finely tuned that it reacts like blotting paper to the atmosphere. When nursing the sick, for instance, Pisceans are apt to reflect a patient's own symptoms themselves. Indeed, Pisceans often have problems defining the boundaries between fact and fiction in general. Pisces is empathetic and compassionate, and cannot bear to see another living being in pain. Indeed, Pisceans feel very deeply about other people as they do not have a strong sense of separation and individuality. Pisces is an intuitive sign which can receive great inspiration. Pisceans are thus the natural mediums and mystics of the zodiac who can communicate their inner vision through either the arts or the sciences, or caring professions.
Pisces can also be a sign of selfless or self-sacrificing devotion, and is capable of truly unconditional love for others. Artistic, kind, sympathetic, intuitive, visionary, sensitive, adaptable, receptive. hey hey !
kk TATA
Mr chua , YIDE!; 18:20
Thursday, 29 November 2007
YaYaYa ! Today is a great day!
today go cwp walk walk saw bk and Wj lol they were going to work , anyway Cwp got a lot of Girls in group walking around , Woots .
Sian la , saw pastor just now then keep on telling how good is god blah blah blah what god heal who who who then what happen then she was hinting that god is GREAT ! Whatever =.= Totally not bothered.
walk walk untill sian liao take 912 to ah ma house to seee ah ma ! but then i realise the SS shop suddenly became so small ... poor uncle . YAWN ~ whatever la
Anyway took 187 back there was this bunch of Girl behind me , I was listening to my mp3 Fuckingly noisy , feel like slaping them , but when i turn around , i saw a phone infront of me , lols , dunno if they were taking photo or whatever . If they did , they are going to die =) HARD ^^
Lol , they were damn noisy , Keep on talking about bf's , what hole what hole de , CAO SI REN LA ,Nabei.
yawn , today was a nice day ^^ hmm.. bk invite me to the chalet , Should be fun yea =)
tmr .. what nice to do ? maybe go cwp buy my cd Super junior's cd is out ! hm...going around 3 la .
Love is a obesity ? LOL , Fuck it la who the hell will fall for that? siao.
Lol , i gotten over it la .
.
tata
Mr chua , YIDE!; 08:02
Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Yaya .!
Back to post ,
today i will post is special ,
this picture is dbsk's last angel
nice song .
Here is goes :
我是否在梦中
脑袋有点空
手脚不想移动
雨后一道彩虹
人们开始走
我该不该停
留这世界一直转动
你离开以后忘了
什么时候不想哭 眼泪在眼中
我想笑 嘴角牵不动
你的眼 突然间 看不懂
不想哭 找不到理由我想笑
心却一直在痛
你的脸 让空气 变沉重想忘了
喔爱过了
怎么能够
一个人的时候房间有点冷
心跳有点失控
你留下的伤口,我留下的痛
怎么一直痛
是谁故意触碰
不想哭 眼泪在眼中
我想笑 嘴角牵不动
你的眼 突然间 看不懂
不想哭 找不到理由
我想笑 心却一直在痛
你的脸 让空气 变沉重想忘了
喔爱过了
怎么能够
我们曾经拥抱在最脆弱的时候现在
你说大哭一场后就有笑容
我的爱 给了你 怎么收!?
不想哭 眼泪在眼中
我想笑 嘴角牵不动
你的眼 突然间 看不懂
不想哭 找不到理由
我想笑 心却一直在痛
你的脸 让空气 变沉重
想忘了 喔
有人跟我说
望了她吧
我那时会答不了
可是我相信
她的位置
是没有人可以 , 取代的
所以我想说我 , 放弃了
我给妳爱
可是妳现在选了他
我只好把我的心收回来 , 在好好的 , 养伤. 可能我欠妳 , 悲伤.
所以我就还妳.
Maybe this time is different from my first love ,
it's impossible to find someone else to take over .
i don't wish to wait ,
coz , i know you well enough
you won't look back .
you have already been on your way
on the bus ,
but i'm still standing on the dark cold street
and the bus stop is miles away .
i was walking on some lane along the road ,
just to think ,
and i sorted out my feelings ,
lucky there was a shelter ,
it started pouring suddenly ,
but the rain had already stop .
My heart still hurt ,
Memories are sogoodand yet sotorturing.
I won't forget ,
but one day i can
I don't anyone to heal ,
maybe
1 year
2year
3year
i can .
Like i say , irony isn't it ? It's just a matter of time
Mr chua , YIDE!; 07:00
Tuesday, 27 November 2007
hiyayaya!
back to post =)
This is YUNHO! of dbsk !
Leader and lead dancer in the group .
i envy him man !
his dance is wayyyyyyy too cool ,
his wave , break dance , robot , electric dance and many many more
is cool .
i like his solo on rising sun and O FAN ZHEN HE .
too cool man .
cool earing eh?
haha .
Lets talk about today ,
i have learn alot , today and only today about love .
Love is too good for me
my opinion , ya .
i used to think that love is just a game ,
the more you control that person
the more she won't leave you
but then i realise ,
love is eternal ,
when you lose something you thought you can get it back
but no =),
Time is something that is too pretty for all humans ,
it shall or never go back for anyone in this world .
Remember all the one you love ,
Never let them down ,
Never hurt them ,
Never let them drop a tear ,
love is like a pretty flower ,
you can make it grow and look nice and unique
but you yourself must grow with it ,
love can be hurtfull too , yes ^^.
like roses with torns ,
bleed ,
but when compare to love
the hurt is uncomparable ,
like getting stab in the heart ,
unable to heal .
so people ,
never say sorry to anyone in a relationship
because when you say sorry ,
you kill that pretty flower .
in love ,
Everyone is a gardener ,
slowly but surely ,
yes.
but i'm not anymore ,
i'm just looking at everyone else flower ,
but mine has wither and died .
so is my heart .
hehe , i feel like i have grown up abit ,
slowly , this flower will grow back
but do flower really recover after it wither?
i doubt so .=)
haha ,
can i compare myself to a corpse
nah maybe not ,
coz i'm still alive ,
yet .... i really.......
everytime i cry ,
the feeling goes down abit .
lols , i feel weak , im a weak man
yayaya !
guys don't worry ,
i will be okay ,
since it's not the first time ,
This house is kinda big ,
clean and wash for almost a day ,
im abit careless ,
slip and fell ,
leg bleed ,
but it felt good ,
i am still alive , arn't i ?
alive should be a wonderfull thing .
lol , i now then realise i'm a love to be clean freak .
What a joke ,
the pain goes down when i did
cleaning and washing ,
well ....
shall continue later.
tata !
Mr chua , YIDE!; 08:21
Monday, 26 November 2007
hiyayayaya! Coffee prince was great ,
im a coffee lover too =D
hiyyayayaya !
i love the story line la ! so damn cute =D
okay , lets get into my world abit shall we?
i am yide , so ?
i feel like this world is falling apart .
I Don't give a fuck ,
i don't see the point to act good boy leh .
Tell you the truth i feel like killing him when you said that ,
althought it's my fault ,
okay la ,
i will live better ,
I WILL PROVE TO MY FRIENDS I CAN LIVE HAPPLIY
without anyone .
i am tired ,
too tired ,
i need someone to hug to
anyone will do ,
slowly ,
the worst thing is
im breaking into 1/2
i don't want anyone to see that side of me ,
i will run away ,
thats what i do best isn't it ?
independence from now on,
you did't know .
killing my feeling for you ,
is a thousand time more painfull then
anything .
kiss and cry .
crying is to let myself feel better ,
i find myself so childish ,
like a baby ,
so clueless now .
Anyway lets keep myself busy ,
that might work ,
clean then wash then cook ,
coz in this house i am living in ,
im alone .
even there is people beside me ,
im still alone .
Rage is not me ,
being calm is so fake ,
peacefullness is a lie ,
gentleness is too girlish
cool is too boyish
so am i?
just me and me .
two fish . that's why .
i realise maybe love is for everyone else ,
not for me ,
alone is what that god wants me ,
because of a mistake ,
I hate him , i really really do .
Mr chua , YIDE!; 20:28
Sunday, 25 November 2007
Hey ya!
Back to POST !
yayayayaya! east coase was F U N ! =D 1st day hmm... i came with er yi to set things up at the place .. LOL , kaingee insisted that the tunnel where we went pass look as if it was burning hm...althought it look like it , but i knew she was crapping =x She and yanngee keep on taking photo and video of the journey to east coast , then when she video me , she say i act cool , WALAO ! anyway... i cycled for 3 hr on the first day ! WOW ! i enjoyed the breeze , the nice salty air ! hmm....people walking on the cycle lane should be blind , is i dun want to bang them they want come into cycle lane kajiao me >< so in the end i go far far place to play (cycle) haha , kaingee has a lot of chiobu friends ! althought they all in poly =X. around after 7+++++++ we started the bbq damn fun la! but i help with the satay only lo ... never eat the stingray =( sad lei !!! but it's spicy so..... im scared ...althought i eat curry once every few week but i dun want RAIN !!!!!!! not GOOD !!! after bbq we went to cycle again !!! =))))) FUN FUN FUN !!! hmm....how i wished i had a big sister like kaingee or big brother like edmund (",) after bathing we find place to slp .... then damn cold la !! me , xiao pan (yanngee) , kaingee shared a blanket ! BUT HOR I 4plus wake up coz too cold then i realise i NO BLANKET !! coz xiao pan TOOK IT AND SHE WAS SLEEPING HAPPLIY WTH !! =( 2nd day wake up then go to mac eat around at 8 bah... i eat biggie breadfast ! coz hungry mah... eat satay and mello onli ... sian aarh! we ride around the east coast park with our bikes then kaingee keep on wanna fall down , lol. forget to mention ME and kaingee jie jie NEVER FALL THOUGHOUT THE journry(yesterday too ) YAY ^^v we went to the jetty then i started to look at the sea ! but then i suddenly feel my hart very empty hahas , i think most of the time i was thinking of her bah. yes it's YOU !! haha , i really wonder... have you fallen for XF yet? haha 3 days is a long time you know ... it's possible , haha , but i feeling a bit green la >< anyway ....i do hope you are happy these few days , without me around to be online , ANYWAY.... i master the bike liao !! but i got bad habbit i always ride slow coz i wanna enjoy the breeze ^^ and i keep on want to move left to right all the time =P at afternoon we went beach to play ! haha , i was walking on the beach then suddenly think of you again . WHY? haha , maybe never see how you are really gets into my brain . YOu arh ...take care arh.... dun always want go out to play , know you so long liao always like this one... hai~... then at night i become mello cum satay cum otak MAN !!!!!! SO COOL ! i was bbqing satay and otak for everyone but i got eat la , i eat alot of mello sia , me and yang yang was joking around .. at night want slp liao then the adult took over the new place then we were forced to slp at the smelly place =( everyone ( i mean the young ppl only) went for a walk coz everyone angry =(( coz of the adults !!! we were joking around coz got GUANG ZHEN gor gor A.K.A RANDOM GUY !!! he damn funny la... we went back to slp after that .. but i cannot slp coz they ( the young ppl )playing card So noisy .. only er yi , eryi zhan , kaingee and yanngee slp liao then in the end i play till 4 then slp... 3rd day last day liao so we went cycle for 1hr plus then we eat , after that we watch doraemon and kid's central INDIAN POKAR was fun lo. around 11 jiu go liao lo..
My thoughts .
i realise , without you , i'm empty .
selfish me .
i really want you , for you i will never leave you again ,
everything that you do or say , affects me .
come back to me , i pray .
you fall sick again....
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF ARH
Mr chua , YIDE!; 06:31
Saturday, 10 November 2007
The slap i wanted,
now everything is complete
i would rather you hate me ^^
so thats all from me to you .
good luck and stay happy ^^
if only i had seen you on the 912 bus , you won't be that unhappy . Greatest apology . i lost track on the number of time i said sorry . sorry ^^
Mr chua , YIDE!; 22:14
Friday, 9 November 2007
Listen , breath , remember .
I had never had forgotten , The first time i sent you home the first time i played basket ball with you the first time i made u angry the first time i gave you the C the first time i said i love you . It's difficult no matter what , I am tired too , my girl . this endless strings of affection got me into a mess. you were the one who healed my wounds. your everymove made my heart skipped , i do know what happened , just that listen closely , girl .
words : Holding my courage i will forget , whole nights without sleep just thinking of you simple things like flu can get me worried. everytime i close my eyes , girl ... The Torturing memories keeps on flashing back
i just believed you will come back to me , i wished you would slap me just right now .
light up , the cig , smoke and exhale it's not easy to do , tick tock , but the clock can't stop no matter how hard i tried U know my love , deep sorrows , just throw it away i'm blind , so i can't see ,
everytime i close my eyes girl... torturing memories, i should have put it behind
because i just believe you will come back to me , but now i wished you have given me a slap.
now i never wanna love you again , but i still miss you.
i...what.. happened to me , when i see you in such pain your eyes , your smile i could not forget i don't want to remember about you again.
i will hide you in my heart .
i will throw this feeling on the hard ice ground and let if froze. for eternity . for you , to look back and it will still be there
i... still miss you.
light up , the cig , smoke and exhale memories like smoke. tick tock but the clock can't stop
no matter... now hard i try.
i was'nt able to forget about you my mind , my soul , my memories it's all you
like a illness , spreading into my body unable to heal...
Mr chua , YIDE!; 08:52
GET OUT OF MY MIND , ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GET OUT I know the feeling now , DAMN YOU ,YIDE DAMN YOU DAMN YOU DAMN YOU WHY CAN't U JUST DIE ! JUST DIE YIDEEE
Mr chua , YIDE!; 04:45
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
YAYS , Science was okay today ! I am so HAPPY ! (but not for long =.= AMATH) HIYA , I CAN DO IT ! today morning was tiring ! but got my friends pei wo , so i was not that afraid ! hmm.. was bored in the afternoon waiting for the paper But glad that siew min was in school coz i was bored ! so talked to her lo , kao the girl beside damn NOISY ! talked till 1.30 then i heard some unpleasent thing from her , so dun feel like talking and she went back . the teach came late , soooo i waited and ended the paper later. IMPORTANT : i think old folks like to watch wwf , expecially old ladies . THATS TOO COOL !!!
Mr chua , YIDE!; 08:13
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
i'll never forgive myself . DAMN I . Dun't know what to do anymore . my mental strength is weakening.
today go play bball , suddenly my knee joints and wrist start to hurt like hell. I'm really tired of everything , so tired , My eternal sleep , ignorance and salvation of death.
Mr chua , YIDE!; 05:46
Monday, 5 November 2007
就是这样,求求妳恨死我吧.
Mr chua , YIDE!; 22:24
Getting really bored. today , did not make it for the bbq coz , exam 2 more days , Damn Fucked up la , study is MORE important then anything .
just now lost badly to the uncle , wakao . 2-11 play untill si bei lan lan seriously could have play better , but my arm and knee suddenly no strength so in the end lost badly .
In the morning got people say i soft , What the fuck ? Damn , i must be hard liao lo . Siao . Who cares you ! Tommorrow wiill be a busy day , a very busy day .
morning study afternoon study night study . i have no more mental strength left , don't care anymore , since you say that , what is left be left , i told myself , i have given up , Let the guy cheer u up , i have no time for such thing anymore , Wasted my time on such a IRRITATING emotion . I'm damn irritated by the weak me . FUCK OFF YIDE , i hope you die soon .
Mr chua , YIDE!; 05:45
lets just stop , too tired to think . do not understand anymore , i don't know what to do anymore . just tired of everything. when you write that , i do not what to do , i was thinking , should i just tell her i'll be here if you'r tired or you can't run away from me . plain stupid , i mean myself. Do not know what to do .
i shall just keep quiet.... if you need me , i'll be here . Yawn. ><
